Wednesday, November 29, 2006
If fighting for what you know is right would cause heartaches and problems for the people you love, would you still go on?
A week ago, I would automatically say “yes, of course. There’s just no other way.” But things change, and you learn something about yourself that way.
Let’s just say that I found myself in a horrible, horrible predicament last weekend in Iloilo. I was supposed to be there to attend my cousin’s wedding but a very unfortunate thing happened and I was thrown into a messy situation.
The finale was a confrontation last Sunday evening with my immediate and extended family. To add insult to injury, I was wrongfully accused by my cousin-in-law. No, she deliberately made up harsh fantastical stories about me.
I knew some of my relatives preferred to believe me. But they had their reservations because she gave details for the past three days when I just smiled and shrugged my shoulders.
I told my relatives to not believe me because I am one of them, but because I am telling the truth. I took out my evidences and that was when I revealed that bitch for what she really is—a jealous, consummate liar.
I threatened them that I would sue. I spoke harsh words. I answered my grandmother back. I screamed and shouted. I cried. It was the first time they saw me serious and mad. I swear they were horrified.
Most of them begged that I forgive them. My cousins just explained to me what will happen if I did go on with my plans of suing.
At the end of that night, I decided not to go on with the lawsuit but I did not inform them. I wanted to teach them to learn an important lesson.
I know that my friends who knew what really happened were a little disappointed with my decision. I understand them. I told Pat that no matter how many times I explain to him how I was raised to choose my family first.
So there, last night I told one cousin, that no, I am not going to sue. I wanted to keep that from them for a week but when I learned how his mother cries herself to sleep and how she went to the city to see a psychiatrist, I knew I couldn’t let her suffer anymore.
I relieved her of her burden. I told another cousin that it felt good to know that she will no longer worry about me. But somehow, it still feels like I let something important go…
***…from Mela
You are The Moon
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.
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1 Comments:
i love you, ruthie.
and i support whatever decision you make.
big hug.
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