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Ruth is a full-time writer. Foodie. Happy camper. Wanders a lot. Used to have the worst taste in men. A reformed swipe-a-holic. Reviving her blog after its death.

Monday, April 28, 2003

My Gynecologist found a cyst in my ovary...

I'll be under observation for the next three months... I'll take Provera for my hormones... and pills...

If there is no improvement, or if I expreience unbearable pain, I would have to undergo a surgery to remove my right ovary...

I'm scared... So scared...

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I never talked about you because there is always pain and shame whenever I remember you...

I'd admit that sometimes I ask myself those irritating "what if?" questions...

I'm sorry for everything...

A part of me will always love you... not time nor distance could take that away from you... or from me...

But I will have to forget about you until the next time I see you...

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Ubos na pera ko. Pakiramdam ko nasobrahan ata ako sa bakasyon. Pero okey lang... Nag-enjoy naman ako ng sobra. Kahit sa kahulihulihang pagkakataon nasa beach pa rin ako... Uuwi na lang sa Maynila, lakwatsa pa sa mga diskuhan ang inuna ko... Malalaki na nga kami ng mga pinsan.. Iba na nga ang mga trip namin... Pero mahal ko pa rin sila.. at siyempre, napaiyak ako noong kelangan ko ng magbabay sa kanila...