Monday, May 31, 2004
I could now tick off the box beside the sentence that says “stargaze at the Fort Bonifacio till the wee hours of the morning” under the 101 things I should do before I die.
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College had been a comfort zone for me. I knew every crook and canny of my university like the back of my hand. I couldn’t walk for a few distances without meeting someone I know, some even way back from elementary and high school.
Graduating from college is very much like being forcibly pulled out of my mother’s womb—enlightening, sweet, and painful.
The world has become my
tambayan. Yet nothing compares to the lazy afternoon spent with a friend/s at the Colayco Park or the Botanical Garden.
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A month ago, I made a serious step towards advancing my career. I still think about whether if it was the smartest move I could’ve made. I often ask myself if I had the right reasons. But what is “right” anyway?
Whatever the outcome, I will be ready. I’ve faced the worst rejection of my life in high school. High school kids are not known for their kindness or for their ability to forget.
For I remember it well. I remember how I worked so hard and my efforts were not recognized. They thought I was “too cheerful” to handle the job. Apparently, I didn’t possess the right qualifications to become an officer in a semi-military organization: I didn’t have the balls to give out punishments and I wasn’t in a relationship with a higher ranking officer.
It was my first taste of the real world. I learned not to expect fairness from narrow-minded people.
I will stick to my decision. I don’t want to think about how hard it will be. I will think about the challenges that I would be facing.
And that’s how it’s going it to be for me, from now on.
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